Lord, what I think about is you
How Your Word it carries me through
When I am falling down
A slave to sin I am bound
It’s Your Love on a cross
That saved me when I was lost
I am no longer a slave to sin
You broke the chains that I was in
You alone forgive
It’s Your ways I try to live
It is You who changed my heart
Then You gave me a brand new start
It is darkness I seem to fight
You alone are my guiding Light
Temptation will not leave me be
It is Your Word that sets me free

 
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With arms wide open,
I cry out to God
He loves me so
Even though I’m flawed
His love covers
Over all my sin
He guides me through,
The mess that I get in
His love for man
Put Christ on a cross
He died for all of us
He died to save who’s lost

With arms wide open
He calls out my name
As I walk with Him
He takes away my shame
As I follow Him
I walk in His ways
It is His Spirit
That helps me not to stray
With arms wide open
He calls out your name
If you don’t know Christ
There’s no time to delay

 

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Why do I constrain God to a box
Isn’t His Sovereignty what gets blocked
Thereby putting limits on His power
I often want help in less than an hour
When I put limits on our Holy God
It changes the focus in who gets awed
God is not designed to packed away
Then to be pulled out and put on display
God is not like any kind of idol
His Sovereignty can not be bridled
He is not made of wood, metal or gold
He is not like us humans that one day grow old
God is Holy for that He does say
It’s up to His children to follow His ways
When we follow His ways He remains to be God
And rightfully so He deserves to be Awed

 

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Have you ever seen the fog lift clear
Then the gaze of ones eyes turn bright
It’s hard not to shake our fear
That’s until we see the light
The Light is He who draws us near
He’s the One that helps us in this fight

In this fight do not struggle
Leave your struggle with the Lord
A worldly life we can not juggle
Life’s answers are in our Sword
In this life we Will struggle
So cast your burdens on the Lord

 

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Father In Heaven

Father in heaven, You are my God
It’s You that I fear, how I stand in awe
Now I know that you pursued me first
Its your love that I hunger and thirst
When I think of how You nailed Your Son to a tree
I stand amazed that You would do this all for me
I surrender my life, put it all in Your hands
I can surrender it all because Jesus walked as a man
Right from the start this was Your master plan
We praise You Father because You redeemed man

 

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I had a friend tell many years ago that I could do anything I wanted to as long as I was willing to live with the consequences, good or bad. There are good consequences as well as bad. They are all relative to the decisions and choices I make. For me a problem I have is I don’t think about the consequences all the time. Nor do I always think about what I’m going to say and do. Then there’s the fact that my actions and consequences affect not only me but they affect those around me as well.

Where I’m going with this is that while I was sick in the hospital I took the time to reflect over my life and have came to a conclusion that all my life’s choices didn’t cause all my medical problems. Especially knowing that they started out genetically as hereditary. But the fact that I chose to drink and consume drugs most of my life didn’t help matters any, and I will own that. See most of my life I drank and lived as if there were no tomorrow without a care in the world, not thinking there would come a time when I will need a good immune system and what major organs I have will need to function correctly. This infection that hospitalized me 6 weeks ago has been an ongoing infection and all the strong long term antibiotics is what eventually shut down my kidneys. But in a real time sense the choice to live the life style that I chose for most of my life and not taking good care of my self hadn’t helped my health any either. I know how does this all tie in to a life as a follower of Christ. That’s a good question.

In the Bible there were/are consequences for not obeying Gods commands and there are consequences for sin. God doesn’t and hasn’t changed and there are still consequences for sin and disobedience. Consequences may vary and they may not be immediate, but that doesn’t mean I have escaped any them. The one thing as a believer that I escape is eternal death caused by sin and this can not be earned by any way. Eternal life is only a gift of God. Romans 3:23 for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and all are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Jesus Christ, and Romans 6:23 For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus or Lord.

I know there might be a disconnect in relating all of this together, but some might be able to. God loves all mankind and doesn’t want anyone to perish, but the consequence for sin is death. However the consequence for disobedience is discipline and sometimes the discipline is God pruning me or molding me to the image of His Son Jesus Christ. As for some of my long term consequences, I consider them like a thorn.  They keep me focused on seeking the Lord.

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Have you ever been in a place in your life where you’re scared of something, and you claim to believe Gods promises but you can’t overcome whatever it is that is making you scared. I have recently got the opportunity to stare face to face with one of my biggest fears as a Christian and not completely have overcame that fear, but know and believe that God isn’t finished with me. I’m even almost afraid to tell what it is out of embarrassment. My biggest fear is dying. I think the reason why is because since 2003 when I had cancer I’ve had to live with a lot of chronic medical problems, being in and out of the hospital for years always wondering what was going to be next.

I am currently residing in a hospital and have been for 6 weeks for acute renal failure. At one point there was a short time that my labs were so high and out of balance and I was so sick that I thought that I was going to die and my doctors and medical team feared it as well. Because my kidney function numbers were continuing to soar I was transferred to a specialty hospital for ongoing dialysis with the high possibility it was going to be long term in the least. I was at the point I didn’t know if I could live with dialysis the rest of my life and part of me today believes that was a selfish thought. To be with our Lord would probably the biggest blessing one could have and I don’t completely understand why I would want to be so stuck to this temporary home. I have a wife and children , a family and other reasons why I say I don’t want to die, but mostly I want to think I can still be used here on earth by God.

While going through this sickness, especially the worst part all I could think about and talk to God about was God I’m not ready to go and Lord I don’t want to go. It was never about what Gods will is, it was all my will and there were a couple of friends that kept retelling me the story of Jesus in the Garden. See my biggest problem has always been my belief system, I believe yet I doubt. To me that seems to be still unbelief. How I learned my own plight is God gave me the opportunity to pray for a patient in this hospital and in my conversation with her she said she was afraid but she didn’t say why so we talk that God was right there with her and I asked her if she believed that and she said she believed it but was scared that she didn’t believe. I was literally in the same place this lady was. A verse and passage that came to my mind is Joshua 1:5 No one will be able to stand against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you: I will never leave you nor forsake you. The passage is Mark 9:14-29. I don’t know if any of that helped this lady, but when I got back to my room I started to shift my focus. I heard a message and my prayer started shifting. I started asked God for His wisdom and the strength to follow His Will no matther what it was and that no matter whether He called me home with Him or heal my kidneys I will serve Him in any way he chooses. I believe today as an answer to prayer my numbers have started going down and my kidneys are starting to repair. The way things were this can only be by the grace of God.

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