Posts Tagged ‘conviction’

You are our Lord, You are our King
It’s praises to You that we want to sing
We bow in your presence, we kneel at Your cross
It’s Your message of grace that saves all whose lost
You are the light, You are the way
All who come to You Christ will be saved this very day
You are the well that never runs dry
All who drink of you now will never have to die
You are the banner that hung high on a hill
All who submit to You now will forever be filled
You are the bread that gives us new life
We are Your bride like a husbands new wife
You sent us Your Spirit to convict us of sin
Because of Your grace it’s our hearts that get cleansed
You are the Truth that offers us freedom
We change our old ways for we no longer need them
It is out with the old and in with the new
We give glory to God all because of You

© Copyright By Bart Hickey, All Rights Reserved, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014 and 2015


I Am Carrying Christ In My Heart
From salvation I get a new start
It is Christ that saves me from death
He broke the chains of addiction to meth
Now I carry the seal of the Spirit
I can not earn life by my own merit
So now I am a new creation in life
That doesn’t mean I do not have strife
Now I’ve been called, been set apart
I get to start each day with a new clean heart
I’ve also been called out of the bondage of sin
It starts with the conviction from the Spirit within
Now I start each day refreshed and a new
Because I carry Christ in my heart I get to share this with you


© Copyright By Bart Hickey, All Rights Reserved, 2011, 2012, 2013 and 2014


Is God’s Love Showing In and Through You
Have You Suffered For the Cause of Christ

Matthew 25:31- 46
31) When the Son of Man comes in his glory, he will sit on his glorious throne. (32)All the nations will be gathered before him, and he will separate the people from one another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. (33) He will put the sheep on the right and the goats on the left.
(34) “then the King will say to those on the right, ‘Come, you who are blessed by my Father: take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. (35) For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat , I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, (36) I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.’
(37) “ The righteous will answer him, ‘ Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? (38) When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or need clothes and clothe you? (39) When did we see you sick and in prison and go visit you?’
(40) “ The King will reply, ‘ Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.’

I recently had to go into the hospital for an infection and the very medications that they administered to kill the infection a few days later shut my kidneys down. To keep you from feeling bad for me , I’m omitting parts of the story to keep from drawing attention to me. Because I want you to see how even though I’m sick in the hospital God can and will use me and YOU Too…
I had to be transferred from one hospital to a specialty hospital for kidney dialysis and while in this hospital I got the opportunity with my wife to help someone whose wife is a patient tin this hospital as well. This gentleman , I had been noticing the he came to be with his wife everyday. I had also when it was our lunch or dinner time he would just sit with his wife quietly. Feeling convicted tonight I ask if he had plenty of money to eat on and he humbly said no and I had already knew how he was getting here to be with his wife. I didn’t have much money maybe 22 dollars but I felt God tugging at my heart to give it to him and that’s what I did. I actually wished I had more to give him , so instead my prayer is that God will take that small amount of money and multiply it to sustain him in food while his wife is sick. You might be asking why is this such a big deal for me to even blog about it, and I will tell you there was a day when my heart was so hard and bitter that I wouldn’t have given this a thought let alone be a  changed Man of God and show Christ like love to someone. I love God and I love being used by God and this made my day to be able to be used, to show love..

© Copyright By Bart Hickey, All Rights Reserved, 2011, 2012, 2013 and 2014

Brotherly Love

Learning To Love My Brother

HEBREWS 13:1,3 (1) Keep on loving each other as brothers. (3) Remember those in prison as if you were their fellow prisoners and those who are mistreated as if you yourselves were suffering.

MATTHEW 25:35,36,40 (35)” For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited in, (36) I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you visited me.” (40) “The King will reply, ‘I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did it for me.’

This is, you might think an extension of the last story I wrote Learning to Forgive except this is about my paternal brother Steve. There was a lot of jealousy between the two of us growing up, for one he looks just like my dad, and me, well I look like my mother. Right about now you might be saying to yourself where be the problem or jealousy comes from. Well it’s all on my part the jealousy and bitterness that is. I’m ten years older than Steve is and for a long time growing up there was just Shelley and I. Shelley is my oldest sister, who passed away from cancer a few years ago. To make a long story short I grew up being jealous of Steve simply because he got more attention than I did. I got into more trouble it seemed and sometimes for what reason. And as an older brother I was mean and spiteful. To be honest with all the bitterness between dad and me I took out on Steve. You might be saying that’s just sibling rivalry and you’re right it is. Here is a sample of the things we would do to each other. There was a time when angry, probably in rage, while riding a horse I ran over him. And there were times when I, while riding my bike on our gravel driveway, Steve loosened the nuts on my front tire, I would do a jump and the tire would come off and I would eat gravel. And don’t think it all mean, or bad just a lot. Steve and I can laugh now because we are developing a relationship with each other.

Needless to say Steve’s and mine relationship growing up wasn’t great, and our love for one another stemmed from abuse of one another. Steve, after school until now, has been spent mostly in jail and prison. And my attitude about it was he deserved what he got for the things he did. To be honest I committed some of the same criminal acts that he did and I had deserved to be locked up too. But for the Grace of God is why I didn’t and the only reason I can think that I didn’t. Over the years Steve had asked for support by letter writing, financial support with meeting his hygiene needs and my response out of bitterness was always no. Just before he went back to prison this time, we had started talking and he was getting cleaned up off drugs or so I was told, he had called needing to borrow some money. He told me the reason and this was when I was in the beginning of cleaning my life up and learning to submit to God myself. So I believed him and even felt bad for him, I didn’t have the money so I borrowed it with the condition it had to be paid back by a certain time. Well he didn’t and to make matters worse ended back in jail waiting to return back to prison. This was the last straw, I would never forgive him this time I told myself and wrote it off never again to have anything do with him. He went back to prison and again was asking for me to write him without asking for money. I did write two or three times out of guilt but nothing steady.

Here is where God starts softening my heart and at first I was rebellious towards the conviction. I had moved back to Texas from Oregon and was staying with my mother and sister. Billisa had been writing Steve and Mother was sending him a little money. So Billisa talked me into start writing once in a while. Now I want to add that at this time I have been devoted to serving Christ for about five years, some of us grow slower I guess. Besides we are not in a race to see how fast we grow. I met my wife Mary and learned of her strong Christian values to take care of your own family. And it was through watching her care for her father that I started being convicted concerning Steve. Through many talks with Mary and much prayer I started asking God to teach me how to love Steve. I believe God spoke to my heart telling me I needed not only forgive Steve but I needed to seek forgiveness from God and Steve. I in my prayers starting asking how, plus I started asking for prayer from my church. I was ok with writing but had vowed never to set foot in a prison, even for my brother. Might I add don’t tell God you’ll never do something or go somewhere. I believe today God called me to go to the prison to seek my brother’s forgiveness through forgiving him. We made plans, did all the necessary criteria to go visit him. It was on a Sunday and in Sunday school I had asked prayer for this, because I was anxious. For it had been 25 years since I had seen Steve. That is where the bitterness took me. It was a two-hour drive and I had to pray to fight off turning back. I am so glad and Praise and Thank God for His Strength because of the relationship Steve and I are developing. Now I know this is All God because when we met the first thing that happened was Steve asked me to forgive him, I just cried because it was me who needed to forgive him. This was with us being separated by a thick sheet of glass. I just wanted to reach for him to hug and kiss him. What is even more exciting to know is Steve knows Christ? We could not wait for the next visit because I could finally get to put my arms around Steve and hug him, and we did. I MISSED MY BROTHER for once I truly missed Steve, and we hugged for the longest time, I did not want to let him go. I held on tight and just cried. The beauty in those tears is the healing that took place. Mary, my wife couldn’t hold back tears either. As we were holding each other it was as though God was removing all the bitterness and animosity. From there Mary and I were lead and are lead to support him any way we can. And the changes we are seeing in him are amazing. When we first met there appeared to be someone not just behind bars but a man in chains to loneliness, not to mention the chains I was in and not behind bars. See we can be in bondage to a lot of things and never set foot in jail or prison. Christ’s Love and Forgiveness sets captives Free. We are getting to minister to my brother and he is changing and growing, not because we are lead to just support him It’s because I believe we are learning to love each other. Supporting him comes from Christ’s Love. I want to add that my sister Billisa is not in prison behind bars but is in bondage of other things and we are learning to love each other as well. If you’re the prayer warriors I’d like to believe you are please pray that my family will seek Christ’s Love in our relationships and continue to grow in Christ.

To the reader if you are in bondage to anything, I pray you will seek Christ to be set free. JOHN 8:31-32 says; 31) To the Jews, who had believed Him, Jesus said, “ If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. 32) Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

In Christ

© Copyright By Bart Hickey, All Rights Reserved, 2011 and 2012

Learning To Forgive

COLOSSIANS 3:13 Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.

I think to a degree we as humans carry around excess baggage. I know I did and still do. But some the things I learned and carried around was anger, hate, and unforgiveness. It seemed my father was angry a lot especially when he would drink. And as the oldest son, to me it seemed I caught the brunt of his anger. And don’t get me wrong, my father was not all bad. My parents were good providers and with four children we never went without. We just didn’t have a lot of extras and that was ok because my father taught me early on how to work.
I think where things or his anger got bad was when he was diagnosed with cancer and he could no longer work. You see my dad was not an idle person, he had to be doing something at all times. And I loved some of those years because he taught me to farm and work on cars, things of that nature. It wasn’t until I was diagnosed with cancer that I understood his anger. I think that I learned to be angry from him plus the abuse there was that I also learned to hate. And for the most part it was him that I was angry with and hated. As a young child through youth my mother often told me that I was going to be just like my father. The truth is known, I grew to be the spitting image in character as my father. Plus all the medical problems he had I also have. I didn’t just have anger and hate because of the abuse; I hated and blamed him because I got cancer and all the other diseases and medical problems that stemmed from the type of cancer. I witnessed dad spend most of his life in and out of hospitals, surgery after surgery. The difference between him and me is he didn’t have Christ all that time and I am a child of God. I do have hope that I will see him in Heaven though.
In October of 2009 when I had enough and sought out Christ, I had a friend suggest that I do a Bible Study on Identity in Christ by Charles Stanley. And he even gave one to me. It seemed to take along time to start doing the work mostly because I would open it, read a little and decide it to be to hard and close it. Then God started to convict me that I needed to know Christ and His forgiveness. And in that study was a section about forgiveness and being forgiven. There also was a factor that I love listening to preaching and everything that I was hearing had to do with forgiveness. I knew that Christ forgives me for my sins but I had no forgiveness in my heart. I started talking to God asking Him to show me how to forgive and where to start. By this time my dad had passed away from the effects of a stroke and a brain tumor. I started receiving conviction that I needed to start by forgiving my earthly father. But I asked God how could I forgive my father when he is not living any longer. That is when I believe as I opened up my Bible this and another Scripture that at this time can’t remember spoke to me. COLOSSIANS 3:13 Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. At that time I dropped to my knees crying asking for God’s forgiveness for having such a hardened heart. I asked God to teach me how to forgive and this is what I believe God told me, How can you not forgive I forgave you! I then asked God to change my heart, to give me a heart that forgives and teach me how not to hate and how to love. This started my journey on learning to forgive. Christ changed my heart and gave me the desire to seek Him and set me on the path that I never want to go back.

Click this title, “Brotherly Love,” which is a continuance of this story

In Christ

© Copyright By Bart Hickey, All Rights Reserved, 2011 and 2012

All my life was filled with strife

Then Jesus found me and gave life

Before, I toiled and suffered abound

My job was spreading death all around

Now as a New Creation in life

I still have a lot of strife

There is a difference today

Because now I walk in Gods ways

Life still has its ups and downs

But today Jesus is always around

Like the poem foot prints in the sand

I reach up and grab Christ’s hand

Christ’s Spirit convicts me of sin

When I choose righteousness my strength

comes from within

As long as I walk in Gods Ways

He strengthens me not to stray

My heart has been cleansed and purified

With Jesus my life is now satisfied

© Copyright By Bart Hickey, All Rights Reserved, 2011 and  2012


I am getting all twisted up in my mind

The words to express I can’t seem to find

I have an addiction that I can’t seem to shed

The voices are telling me it is all in my head

I put it in the hands of Christ only to take it

back again

The voices in my head are telling me to give


Who am I going to let win in this battle

On the fences in life my choice is not to


I put it back in the hands of my Lord Jesus


This demon gets stronger but I will not be


This strength does not come from myself

It comes from Christ’s Spirit, without it

I need help

This battle in addiction never seems to come

to an end

Put it in the hands of Christ my strength

comes from within

© Copyright By Bart Hickey, All Rights Reserved, 2011 and  2012