Torn

This is a rewrite/finished from the last poem Torn I posted.

In my mind I’m all confused
I feel I’m judged I’m being perused
I stand alone in a crowd
In their presence I am cowed
Oh how my heart is hard
I stand alone like I’m on guard
I often don’t know what to say
I want to turn and run away
But I want to run and hide
This leaves me without a guide
I want to ask what’s wrong with me
Do I have a flaw you see
I petition God I ask and pray
Help me Spirit with what words to say
I know my heart belongs to You
But I’m torn and don’t know what to do
I do not wonder where I belong
Is there something inside me wrong
Oh Lord please hear my prayer
Help me to peel back the layers
Oh Lord hear my cry
On Your Word I do rely
Oh Lord this I pray
In You Presence I want to stay

© Copyright By Bart Hickey, All Rights Reserved, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014 and 2015

It’s All About You

You knew that I was flawed before my birth
Yet You sent Your Son to walk upon this earth

You knew the choices that I was going to make
Yet you provided grace allowing for an escape

You knew the lies that I was going to buy
Yet you sent Your Son in my place to die

You knew hurts that I was going to cause
Yet You sent Your Son to die upon the cross

You knew the people I was going to betray
Yet you provided love that showed me the way

You knew I was lonely and had no way out
You changed my heart and turned me about

You knew the abuse that I had to endure
Your Word alone offered me a cure

You knew I was lost not knowing what to do
You used my life to bring glory to You

© Copyright By Bart Hickey, All Rights Reserved, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014 and 2015

Unearned Grace

I wish I could say it was you that I found
I looked and looked then searched all around
I was looking for love in all the wrong places
I was hiding behind masks with all sort of faces
I would come to you then run the other way
I would stand behind fear that kept me at bay
Paranoid I stood behind fear
You would call my name but I wouldn’t come near
I couldn’t break the chains of deceit
I wouldn’t lay it all at your feet
Then there was a day out with a cry
I was tired of all this and living a lie
You called out to me You called me by name
You told me the truth which broke down the shame
You broke the chains of all the destruction
The chains of sin that caused the obstruction
You gave me life and I’m finally free
You provide grace when you died for me

© Copyright By Bart Hickey, All Rights Reserved, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014 and 2015

Drifting

I spent many years just drifting through
This thing called life without a clue
I was lost like a wandering sheep
Without a home no place to keep
I drifted here and drifted there
Without a clue I did not care
I had a heart with one big hole
Like a plan without a goal
I was like a boat without a sail
Like a train that got derailed
I was constantly just hitting walls
I was getting stuck always getting stalled
I had no place to call my home
Therefore lost always alone
Then one day I heard a knock
At my heart so I had to stop
I just stopped and peeked out that door
I heard a voice like a lions roar
There was a man standing there
He calmed my fear because He cared
He cared for me when I was lost
He cared for me He hung on a Cross
I was lost but now I am found
Thankful to Christ He turned me around
The hole in my heart has been filled with love
Thankful to God in heaven above
I no longer drift from here to there
Christ gave me life now I’m His heir

© Copyright By Bart Hickey, All Rights Reserved, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014 and 2015

Christ Showed Me The Way

When will this paranoia come to an end
I feel like a child all over again

All the abuse I endured as a child
Helped me decide to live like I was wild

As I grew older it was hard to mature
I sought sin and drugs as to an end to a cure

Sin was the way I hid my disgrace
Secrets and shame was but only a face

I had no remorse my friend was my guilt
Lies and deceit was what was being built

Until that day when I wanted to die
It was all I could do to stop believing the lies

I was all alone a lost sheep in the crowd
Hiding behind fear Christ’s voice I heard loud

He told me to drop all the guilt and the shame
Run into His arms and believe in His Name

To believe in His Name is that what I have to do
Believe He’s the Son of God for this I know is true

Now I have a family I belong to the Way
In His Loving arms is where I want to stay

He guides me and protects me He is my God
He is my Healer even though I am flawed

Even though I’m flawed I run into His Arms
He is my Refuge even when I’m harmed

Christ is my Lord I love Him more each day
It’s all because He loved me and showed me the way

© Copyright By Bart Hickey, All Rights Reserved, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014 and 2015

His Grace

Christ paid the price, in full it was paid
He hung on a cross, then laid in a grave

He was mercilessly beaten for all to see
Then hung high on a hill, nailed to a tree

He was the ransom for all, our ransom for sin
And the rebellion that we live in

He conquered death, in three days He was raised
He gives us life and for that He is praised

He went to hell to set captives free
He did this for them so in heaven they’ll be

His mercy is endless, Grace He provides
He is the Word, in Him we will abide

When He ascended to heaven, He didn’t leave us alone
He gave us His Spirit, our heart is His home

He’s the Alpha and Omega, Beginning and End
He has captured my heart, now He lives within

© Copyright By Bart Hickey, All Rights Reserved, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014 and 2015