Archive for December, 2012

Sin if I partake what will it do

It will cause a separation

Between God and you know who


Sin is attractive it’s hard to avoid

It will cause a separation

My walk with Christ can be destroyed


Sin if I partake how will I overcome

Confess my sin to Christ

He is who forgiveness comes from


Sin is enticing how do I abstain

Submit myself to Jesus

He will give me strength to refrain


© Copyright By Bart Hickey, All Rights Reserved, 2011 and 2012


My thoughts are life is too hard
Why is life so darn tough
I cry when I get bruises
I whine when I get scuffed

I know a man that suffered
More than you or I
He was condemned to death on a cross
Do you know the reason why

Upon His own back
He took the worlds sin
To give us a new life
So in His ways we walk in

He died upon that cross
The skies turned to black
All who receives His grace
There is no turning back

© Copyright By Bart Hickey, All Rights Reserved, 2011 and 2012

Fearing God But Not Afraid

This is a random thought I have on my heart and I don’t have any certain Scripture to go with it. I am gun shy if you will about posting this, but also welcome any thoughts you might have.

I love God with all my heart, I also Fear God and His Word. But I so wander in my mind if in the Fearing of God, I not also have some fear of or as one might want to think be afraid. Here is what my thought is on my heart; I am not afraid of judgement for doing something wrong when answering an opportunity That God has placed before me, but what I am afraid of is having to answer for the missed opportunities that I did not answer that were placed before me. This is not something that I dwell on, yet sometimes surfaces though.

I will give you an example of what brought this to mind. Mary and I are lead to have a family stay with us through the winter, as I have written about before. Well due to unforeseen events in their lives one person lost their employment. It was not too long when the two of them got work delivering news papers. The problem is that they need gas and a little cash to take care of their kids. They asked me for the number to my church and I gave it to them but the church is closed on Fridays. By this time I new something to be wrong and they told me. Here is where I was wrong, I started not to do something to help them because in my mind I’m saying don’t we already do enough. I knew we could help some, but I also knew where they might get more help and I was hesitant at first. This was really a fight within myself and now I struggle with the guilt that I allowed the devil to start interfering with what God was doing. As in James 4 says Submit yourselves to God resist the devil and he will flee. I wander in doing this that this is an action step. In my case I asked for forgiveness from God and then did what needed to be done to get them the necessary help. I hope I tied all this together with my thought about not wanting to have to answer for missed opportunities.

In talking with a friend the lesson I walk away learning is obedience, I’m to be obedient to Gods call and when convicted of the times I’m rebellious and disobedient to not answering His call, I am to confess them and ask for forgiveness, in which God is faithful to forgive. It was also suggested by a Godly man that mentors me that, when someone is in need and I know I have the resources or know of resources that can help, it is for me to be obedient to God in filling the need, it is also none of my business what the person does with the resources. That is between them and God. The devil is going to try and interfere by casting doubt in some way. My response to that is by Submitting to God not the devil or my own selfishness.

Feel free to express your thoughts and experiences on this matter.

In Christ

1 CORINTHIANS 16:13,14 BE on your guard; stand firm in the faith: be men of courage: be strong. 14) Do everything in love.

1 PETER 4:8-10 Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins. 9) Offer hospitality to one another without grumbling. 10)Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering Gods grace in it’s various forms.

2 PETER1:5-8 For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness knowledge; 6) and to knowledge self control; and to self-control perseverance; and to perseverance godliness; 7) and to godliness brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness love. 8)For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in you knowledge of the Lord Jesus Christ.

1JOHN 1:9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.

© Copyright By Bart Hickey, All Rights Reserved, 2011 and 2012

I am an addict
It’s hard to admit
Something feels good
I just can’t seem to quit

It doesn’t matter What
Or time of day or nite
When I start the habit
I just can’t seem to stop

If stopping is the problem
What do I need to do
Put my trust in Jesus
He will help me stop What too

© Copyright By Bart Hickey, All Rights Reserved, 2011 and 2012

Brotherly Love

Learning To Love My Brother

HEBREWS 13:1,3 (1) Keep on loving each other as brothers. (3) Remember those in prison as if you were their fellow prisoners and those who are mistreated as if you yourselves were suffering.

MATTHEW 25:35,36,40 (35)” For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited in, (36) I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you visited me.” (40) “The King will reply, ‘I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did it for me.’

This is, you might think an extension of the last story I wrote Learning to Forgive except this is about my paternal brother Steve. There was a lot of jealousy between the two of us growing up, for one he looks just like my dad, and me, well I look like my mother. Right about now you might be saying to yourself where be the problem or jealousy comes from. Well it’s all on my part the jealousy and bitterness that is. I’m ten years older than Steve is and for a long time growing up there was just Shelley and I. Shelley is my oldest sister, who passed away from cancer a few years ago. To make a long story short I grew up being jealous of Steve simply because he got more attention than I did. I got into more trouble it seemed and sometimes for what reason. And as an older brother I was mean and spiteful. To be honest with all the bitterness between dad and me I took out on Steve. You might be saying that’s just sibling rivalry and you’re right it is. Here is a sample of the things we would do to each other. There was a time when angry, probably in rage, while riding a horse I ran over him. And there were times when I, while riding my bike on our gravel driveway, Steve loosened the nuts on my front tire, I would do a jump and the tire would come off and I would eat gravel. And don’t think it all mean, or bad just a lot. Steve and I can laugh now because we are developing a relationship with each other.

Needless to say Steve’s and mine relationship growing up wasn’t great, and our love for one another stemmed from abuse of one another. Steve, after school until now, has been spent mostly in jail and prison. And my attitude about it was he deserved what he got for the things he did. To be honest I committed some of the same criminal acts that he did and I had deserved to be locked up too. But for the Grace of God is why I didn’t and the only reason I can think that I didn’t. Over the years Steve had asked for support by letter writing, financial support with meeting his hygiene needs and my response out of bitterness was always no. Just before he went back to prison this time, we had started talking and he was getting cleaned up off drugs or so I was told, he had called needing to borrow some money. He told me the reason and this was when I was in the beginning of cleaning my life up and learning to submit to God myself. So I believed him and even felt bad for him, I didn’t have the money so I borrowed it with the condition it had to be paid back by a certain time. Well he didn’t and to make matters worse ended back in jail waiting to return back to prison. This was the last straw, I would never forgive him this time I told myself and wrote it off never again to have anything do with him. He went back to prison and again was asking for me to write him without asking for money. I did write two or three times out of guilt but nothing steady.

Here is where God starts softening my heart and at first I was rebellious towards the conviction. I had moved back to Texas from Oregon and was staying with my mother and sister. Billisa had been writing Steve and Mother was sending him a little money. So Billisa talked me into start writing once in a while. Now I want to add that at this time I have been devoted to serving Christ for about five years, some of us grow slower I guess. Besides we are not in a race to see how fast we grow. I met my wife Mary and learned of her strong Christian values to take care of your own family. And it was through watching her care for her father that I started being convicted concerning Steve. Through many talks with Mary and much prayer I started asking God to teach me how to love Steve. I believe God spoke to my heart telling me I needed not only forgive Steve but I needed to seek forgiveness from God and Steve. I in my prayers starting asking how, plus I started asking for prayer from my church. I was ok with writing but had vowed never to set foot in a prison, even for my brother. Might I add don’t tell God you’ll never do something or go somewhere. I believe today God called me to go to the prison to seek my brother’s forgiveness through forgiving him. We made plans, did all the necessary criteria to go visit him. It was on a Sunday and in Sunday school I had asked prayer for this, because I was anxious. For it had been 25 years since I had seen Steve. That is where the bitterness took me. It was a two-hour drive and I had to pray to fight off turning back. I am so glad and Praise and Thank God for His Strength because of the relationship Steve and I are developing. Now I know this is All God because when we met the first thing that happened was Steve asked me to forgive him, I just cried because it was me who needed to forgive him. This was with us being separated by a thick sheet of glass. I just wanted to reach for him to hug and kiss him. What is even more exciting to know is Steve knows Christ? We could not wait for the next visit because I could finally get to put my arms around Steve and hug him, and we did. I MISSED MY BROTHER for once I truly missed Steve, and we hugged for the longest time, I did not want to let him go. I held on tight and just cried. The beauty in those tears is the healing that took place. Mary, my wife couldn’t hold back tears either. As we were holding each other it was as though God was removing all the bitterness and animosity. From there Mary and I were lead and are lead to support him any way we can. And the changes we are seeing in him are amazing. When we first met there appeared to be someone not just behind bars but a man in chains to loneliness, not to mention the chains I was in and not behind bars. See we can be in bondage to a lot of things and never set foot in jail or prison. Christ’s Love and Forgiveness sets captives Free. We are getting to minister to my brother and he is changing and growing, not because we are lead to just support him It’s because I believe we are learning to love each other. Supporting him comes from Christ’s Love. I want to add that my sister Billisa is not in prison behind bars but is in bondage of other things and we are learning to love each other as well. If you’re the prayer warriors I’d like to believe you are please pray that my family will seek Christ’s Love in our relationships and continue to grow in Christ.

To the reader if you are in bondage to anything, I pray you will seek Christ to be set free. JOHN 8:31-32 says; 31) To the Jews, who had believed Him, Jesus said, “ If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. 32) Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

In Christ

© Copyright By Bart Hickey, All Rights Reserved, 2011 and 2012

Learning To Forgive

COLOSSIANS 3:13 Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.

I think to a degree we as humans carry around excess baggage. I know I did and still do. But some the things I learned and carried around was anger, hate, and unforgiveness. It seemed my father was angry a lot especially when he would drink. And as the oldest son, to me it seemed I caught the brunt of his anger. And don’t get me wrong, my father was not all bad. My parents were good providers and with four children we never went without. We just didn’t have a lot of extras and that was ok because my father taught me early on how to work.
I think where things or his anger got bad was when he was diagnosed with cancer and he could no longer work. You see my dad was not an idle person, he had to be doing something at all times. And I loved some of those years because he taught me to farm and work on cars, things of that nature. It wasn’t until I was diagnosed with cancer that I understood his anger. I think that I learned to be angry from him plus the abuse there was that I also learned to hate. And for the most part it was him that I was angry with and hated. As a young child through youth my mother often told me that I was going to be just like my father. The truth is known, I grew to be the spitting image in character as my father. Plus all the medical problems he had I also have. I didn’t just have anger and hate because of the abuse; I hated and blamed him because I got cancer and all the other diseases and medical problems that stemmed from the type of cancer. I witnessed dad spend most of his life in and out of hospitals, surgery after surgery. The difference between him and me is he didn’t have Christ all that time and I am a child of God. I do have hope that I will see him in Heaven though.
In October of 2009 when I had enough and sought out Christ, I had a friend suggest that I do a Bible Study on Identity in Christ by Charles Stanley. And he even gave one to me. It seemed to take along time to start doing the work mostly because I would open it, read a little and decide it to be to hard and close it. Then God started to convict me that I needed to know Christ and His forgiveness. And in that study was a section about forgiveness and being forgiven. There also was a factor that I love listening to preaching and everything that I was hearing had to do with forgiveness. I knew that Christ forgives me for my sins but I had no forgiveness in my heart. I started talking to God asking Him to show me how to forgive and where to start. By this time my dad had passed away from the effects of a stroke and a brain tumor. I started receiving conviction that I needed to start by forgiving my earthly father. But I asked God how could I forgive my father when he is not living any longer. That is when I believe as I opened up my Bible this and another Scripture that at this time can’t remember spoke to me. COLOSSIANS 3:13 Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. At that time I dropped to my knees crying asking for God’s forgiveness for having such a hardened heart. I asked God to teach me how to forgive and this is what I believe God told me, How can you not forgive I forgave you! I then asked God to change my heart, to give me a heart that forgives and teach me how not to hate and how to love. This started my journey on learning to forgive. Christ changed my heart and gave me the desire to seek Him and set me on the path that I never want to go back.

Click this title, “Brotherly Love,” which is a continuance of this story

In Christ

© Copyright By Bart Hickey, All Rights Reserved, 2011 and 2012


ROMANS 8:37-39
(37) No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. (38) For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

I really love being inspired to write and enjoy how while reading a writers blog something in it inspires me to dig in to Gods Word to read Scripture to accompany the inspiration. The blog I was reading this morning if you would like to check it out is Marbles In My Pocket by Charles Mashburn on Word

I love the promises in Gods Word and to be truthful rely on this promise a lot. Whether it have been after I have sinned against God or someone, or a past hurt, hang up or habit surfaces, or whether it be from a demonic influence, there are times when I think and feel separated from the Love of God. There are really times when think God has abandoned me for whatever caused it.

I remember as a youth, my father raised me in an abusive home. The abuse wasn’t every day but it was often enough that my mother let us, 3 siblings and me go to church so that we could get out of the house more. The pastor and his wife, I think after a short while had an idea that something wasn’t just right in our house but did not know exactly what. I believe I was 15 or 16 years of age when I got saved and was baptized by water submersion and so started my journey with the Lord. To be honest I was confused at what it all meant other than I was Truly searching for God and wanted Him in my life. But here is where the confusion comes in, I thought that if I got saved and asked Jesus in to my life that God would make my dad a nicer person and all the abuse would stop. That was not the case, so after a few short years nothing changing in a prayer to God I said if He was not going to change things, all the circumstances in my life I could do a better job with my life than Him. And let me tell you what I believed happened at the time, I believed from that point on till I truly submitted to the Lord in October of 2009 that I had blasphemed the Spirit. I know and believe today that I did not. What I know and believe today is when I said that prayer as a youth that God lifted His hands and let me go live my life in rebellion. There were times when in the face of trouble, more times than I can sit and say in a short story, that I sought the refuge of church or a Bible study that I could have asked for the Truth to be explained so I would not have to go through life confused and in disbelief. The reason I did not was because I was scared to ask plus I thought I was doing just fine and having fun. There are countless times I had believed that I could never get into the grace of God, there are also countless time that God delivered me out of some bondage or crisis and today I believe God never left me, it was me who left Him. Another promise that is in the PSALMS is God will never leave us nor forsake us, and we always can stand firm in this Truth. God is Faithful and He Loves His children.

To the reader, thank you for taking your time to visit my blog site and I hope and pray that my poems and stories inspire or touch you in some way. I also pray that you can see that Jesus has touched and changed my life and that is my life’s goal to Glorify God in doing my part as a follower of Christ. May God bless you all.

In Christ

© Copyright By Bart Hickey, All Rights Reserved, 2011 and 2012